I Will Not Force a Medical Treatment on Anyone

I Will Not Force a Medical Treatment on Anyone

Opinion | I’ve always loved the holidays, but last year was bittersweet. As 2021 came to a close, I walked away from a comfortable career where I once did good in the world. Unsure of how we would make ends meet and wondering if I’d just made a huge mistake, I knew only that I couldn’t continue working in Public Health.

Since graduating from nursing school in 2008, I’d dreamed of being in this field. I thought of Public Health as a noble mission that made peoples’ lives better, improving the overall health of individuals, families, and communities. I was drawn to this broad, holistic approach. After a decade of working overseas, I found a position with a Minnesota public health agency focused on maternal and child health. For the first couple years, it was almost exactly as I’d hoped. But when the pandemic hit, I saw a totally myopic focus on one respiratory illness and a near complete disregard for any other aspect of health.

For the first time in my career, I was told to ignore suffering and forget best practices. Every day, I felt like a fraud.

My first two years on the job were not without their frustrations, but I loved what I did. As a family health nurse, I visited new mothers and infants that our agency had deemed at risk. I was proud of the relationships I formed and humbled when parents allowed me into their homes. I saw people who lived on a knife’s edge economically, socially, and psychologically. They trusted me with some of their deepest fears.“Is my baby ok? Am I a good enough parent? How will we get by?” I was in awe of my clients who stood in the face of poverty, loneliness, uncertainty, and fear but worked hard and sacrificed everything for their infants. Whether I was helping a new mother to breastfeed, find English classes, muster the courage to call a therapist, or access a food pantry, I felt grateful to be doing this work.

In March 2020, as rumblings of the pandemic picked up, I overheard the nurses commenting that the public schools were closing indefinitely. I thought about the families on my caseload that had kids in school. How would they manage without special education services, how would they manage with work? Many parents didn’t speak much English; did they know what was going on and how to find help? What about kids on free/reduced price meals? “But we know that this virus is not deadly for kids,” I said to one of them. “I know, but they can spread it to the teachers,” one nurse responded. My heart sank and I got a pit in my belly that has been there ever since.

The epidemiologist on staff explained the concept of “flattening the curve” by drawing a graph in blue marker on a white board in the conference room. I suspect it’s still there to this day. Who would see it? Everyone was sent home.

We were told not to come into the office except to pick up any needed supplies and to stay 6 feet away from others when we did. We were to schedule ‘phone visits’ with our clients and check in on them virtually. I spent my final day of in-person work furiously searching for essentials to give my families who couldn’t afford “stocking up.”

From the abrupt halt of home visiting and the laughable direction that we counsel new mothers and assess infants online to vaccine mandates that bred mistrust and fear, I watched my vulnerable families founder and fail. Throughout 2020 and then in late 2021, I voiced my concerns to leadership about the loss of trust in public health. “Harm will happen,” I was told. “Public Health addresses the immediate physical danger first, then deals with the repercussions.”

I watched for 18 months as our new ‘public health’ policies exacerbated inequality, drug abuse, child endangerment, and mental illness. My director responded by accepting more grant money to address these very issues. I was implementing policies that negatively affected the poor and racial minorities while our agency was declaring racism a public health crisis and receiving dollars to fight it. I was helping to trap people in isolation and despair while a coworker wrote about the impending mental health crisis and won a grant from the American Rescue Plan.

I was watching our agency coerce people to take vaccines, which severely decreases trust, and then use federal grant funds to address vaccine hesitancy. While the families I saw were losing their livelihoods, my director was posing for pictures with the governor who enforced the closure of their workplaces. Tolkien’s character Galadriel reminds us, “The hearts of men are easily corrupted.”

One family that I had been working with for over a year was already on the edge of isolation and poverty. The mother stayed home with the four kids, including two young babies, while the dad worked a minimum wage job. They had recently become U.S. citizens and were taking a shot at the American Dream. Their two elementary school-aged children were now home, and mom had to find a way to feed them breakfast and lunch. She did not read English and did not understand she could still access school meals. The school district required families to be physically present at the school and provide proof that they were residents of the district—each day—in order to take home meals. For a woman with 4 small children and no access to a vehicle, this was impossible.

I emailed the school to ask if I could vouch for the family and deliver the meals for the kids. I was denied. The family went without until the father was completely without work and now had the time to go and pick up the meals.

Many of the families I served were undocumented immigrants and unable to file for unemployment or rent assistance. Most lost their income overnight. Head Start closed, forcing low-income parents to leave children with unlicensed childcare providers so that they could attempt to find a new job in an “essential” industry.

One mom told me her 18-month-old would cry when she left him with an old lady in an apartment full of kids. He seemed ‘different’ ever since she started leaving him there, but didn’t feel she had any other choice. As these children were placed in potentially unsafe situations, many in the laptop class would remark to me that they enjoyed the cost savings of not having to put their kids in full time daycare.

It was no surprise to me when the American Academy of Pediatrics declared a national emergency of pediatric mental health in October 2021. Many who work closely with children felt as though we were screaming into the void that this would happen and were just met with the response “children are resilient.” People had confused resilient with adaptable. Children will adapt to any environment they are placed in, including toxic ones. This does not mean they are innately resilient; the problems often manifest in adulthood, particularly when they come to have their own children. The current sharp decline in the mental health of children is only the tip of the iceberg of what is to come.

One family I worked with had five children, four of whom had special needs. Their mother was single and relied on special-ed services at the school. When the schools closed, she became a prisoner in her own home. She was unable to leave because she could not handle that many children in public by herself. Her mother used to help, but was at high risk for COVID complications and stayed away for many months. She told me that to use her WIC and EBT she would park in front of grocery stores and beg the workers to take her card and use her PIN in order to pay for her groceries.

Summer came and she was unable to take her kids outside because the one who was nonverbal would run through the neighborhood. I called her every week for nearly a year and I would hear the desperation in her voice. She would yell at the kids in the background and tell me she felt like she was going crazy; her children had been without therapies for months. She tried to get online counseling for herself, but it was hard to find the space in her home for privacy.

Another mother had struggled with suicidal ideation and major depression for years. She had a difficult time making it to her counseling appointments. At one point when I called her, she told me she had been in the bathroom the week prior with a bottle of pills. Thinking about her children caused her to put it down. I thanked her for her courage and we came up with a plan and made an appointment with her psychiatrist. Then I hung up the phone and cried. When I caught up with her a few months later, she told me that she had turned to drugs to cope. With 3 young kids, one of whom would later be diagnosed with autism, she was overwhelmed when their Head Start program closed.

Families were terrified of catching COVID and some skipped appointments for themselves or their children because they perceived clinics as dangerous. I discovered later that one family was refusing to allow their boys, ages six and eight, outside to play because of the fear of catching COVID from the air. They stayed in the small, cluttered apartment for many weeks watching TV and playing video games. When I saw them in summer, they had gained significant amounts of weight. One mother described symptoms of mastitis and I pleaded with her to go to urgent care but she refused because she was too afraid of COVID. Another young mother would not take her child to get his 18-month vaccines because of a fear of contracting COVID. I tried to explain that pertussis is far more dangerous to her child, but the fear had taken root.

I had always understood that the role of Public Health was to give accurate information to the public and support them in making healthy choices. We were supposed to use facts and data to dispel fear. But now, Public Health began to routinely distort and exaggerate data to fit their narrative. Emails between the Minnesota Health Department and Governor Walz’s staff appear to do just this. The communications director at our own local agency asked us to find a young healthy person who had ended up hospitalized in order to illustrate the dangers of COVID to young people. Since the actual dangers to young healthy people were quite rare, we never found anyone in our community to fit her profile. But someone else did.

How could I convey to the mother with mastitis that the urgent care was safe if I, myself wasn’t permitted into her home for breastfeeding support because it was “too risky?” If I was not permitted to go into a home in order to weigh and assess a newborn baby, why should a mother not be concerned about taking him to the clinic for his vaccines? It felt completely disingenuous and I started to experience deep moral distress.

Every time I asked what the goal was to return to visiting families in their homes, I was given the same answer: “Let me check into it.” Who had decided to stop in-person nursing services? I couldn’t always tell because no one seemed to want to take that responsibility. The State Health department had told us to do what we were comfortable with as an agency. Sometimes I was told it was the safety and compliance officer, sometimes it was the director of public health.

Many of the nurses themselves did not want to return in person—which I understood. For the first time in my career, I didn’t have to worry about childcare, rush hour, or getting up in time to take a shower before work. I didn’t have to sit in a cramped, hot, smelly apartment with someone’s boogery child crawling all over me. I was pregnant with my fourth child and far more comfortable staying home. But that convenience didn’t make up for the guilt I felt.

The families that were part of our program made it possible for people like me to stay home. They went to work in grocery stores, restaurants, packing school lunches, construction, and working as nursing assistants in long-term care.

Then the vaccines came. Many had already recovered from COVID and found it to be mild, myself included. They were wary of the vaccine or felt they didn’t need it because they had already had the illness. But Public Health insisted through a variety of coercive means, that in order for us to feel safe around these people, they must get vaccinated.

A few days after my baby was born, our agency received its first shipment of the long awaited mRNA vaccines. We were short-staffed, so I called my manager and let her know that I would be willing to return 1-2 days per week to give vaccines. I was determined to do my part in ending the pandemic in order to get back to normal for the families on my caseload (not to mention my own family). I recall telling people that they were 95 percent protected from ever getting COVID at all. It was a hopeful and exciting time that was extremely short-lived.

Within months, we had people asking us just to give them a filled out vaccine card so that they could enter lotteries and earn incentives from Krispy Kreme. One of our nurses had someone tell her he would give her his stimulus check if she would just fill out the card. Of course, we declined these requests and bribes. By April, we were told by the state health department that we could start opening a 10-dose vial for 1 person and waste the other nine doses, something that was unconscionable just weeks prior.

Then things started to turn even more sinister.

One afternoon, a young man sat down at my vaccine station in an angry manner. I asked what was going on, he said, “I’m only here because my work is telling me I have to get this to keep my job.” I set down my alcohol swab and removed my gloves saying “I’m sorry sir, but I can’t give you this vaccine if you are being coerced.” (At that time, I understood this to be the policy of public health.) He looked surprised. I told him that he appeared capable of making his own medical decisions and I could not take part in coercion. He and I chatted for a while about his personal risk factors for COVID, the known potential side effects of the vaccine, etc. In the end, he decided that he did want it after all, so I put my gloves back on and gave it to him. But the incident haunted me.

After that, I tried to avoid working at COVID vaccine clinics. But there was one that I ended up working at in September at a local community college. While sitting there with nearly no one showing up, I recounted this story to the nurse I was with to see what she thought about it. “We are at the point where people need to be forced,” was her reply. My heart sank. I never wanted to be part of forcing medical treatments on anyone.

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I turned in my resignation letter in November 2021. It had been an honor to be invited to do the work that I did, but I felt that I no longer belonged nor was welcome in my workplace. As I cleared out my desk, I came across infographics on the importance of babies seeing faces, the dangers of too much screen time, and notes from trainings that described the detrimental effects of social isolation. These were relics of a time when the well-being of children was the singular focus of my work, but that era in public health seemed to have passed.

Laura Van Luven is a Registered Nurse living in the Twin Cities, Minnesota. She has also practiced nursing in East Africa and Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. She and her husband spend most of their energy trying to give their four young children as normal a childhood as possible.

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43 Responses to "I Will Not Force a Medical Treatment on Anyone"

  1. Paul   February 28, 2022 at 2:27 pm

    Its the trajectory of the medical cartel, coupled with the time in history and the agenda.
    Despite your desire to serve which is admirable, serving this profession not only makes you complacent but also complicit. Resignation was the best option.

    • Louise Gallagher   March 4, 2022 at 1:14 pm


      That comment is well put. It could not be said any more clearly and honestly.

  2. Steve Sanborn   February 28, 2022 at 2:28 pm

    God bless this woman for her courage. Sadly,concerning her peers in the medical community, she is in a small minority. It will be decades before the Medical Profession achieves the status and respect it once had….before the great covid con.

  3. Dorothy   February 28, 2022 at 2:29 pm

    Good for you Laura for doing what you did and for speaking the truth. It will come out more and more. There is karma. Thank you for standing your ground and being part of the force for “good.”

  4. Dorothy   February 28, 2022 at 2:30 pm

    By the way, realnotrare.com is a great site to show how right you are.

    • Peace   March 1, 2022 at 8:44 am

      Yes, I checked the link. Very informative yet quite heartbreaking.

  5. Mary Nelson   February 28, 2022 at 2:34 pm

    I choose not to vaccinate. I feel the infection is actually safer!

  6. Fabiola Garcia   February 28, 2022 at 2:40 pm

    I have not vaccinated myself, but I ended in a hospital for 2 weeks with pneumonia. I am home with oxígeno getting better but worry thinking if I should get vaccinated so when I get out of this I won’t get it again. I still think, it should be a personal decision; sometime I think, I don’t know why I am going to do

    • Inactive RN   February 28, 2022 at 4:46 pm

      Please do not get the EUA vaccine. You are much more likely to get sick if you get this false medical treatment.

      Covid cost me my job as an RN. It started with full time facemask wearing, which I was unwilling to do for my own health. I sought an ADA accommodation but was denied. That ended my nursing career.

      This so called “vaccine” is not one. It is a DNA altering vehicle. There is much information about it that the population at large does not know. It is much more damaging than good, and like playing Russian roulette with your life.

      Yes, it should be a personal decision. But consent is supposed to be INFORMED, which most Americans are not. The truth is being purposefully withheld by social platforms and the mainstream media. We are experiencing massive censorship. I am telling you the truth when I say this “vaccine” is a lie. Don’t believe anything they tell you about how good it is for you.

      • Peace   March 1, 2022 at 8:50 am

        I read your comment, I know you’re telling the truth. I don’t buy it when the news media mentions how safe and effective Covid vaccine is. I’ve researched a lot. You’re right there are too many unknowns. And more people got damaged or injured from experimental Covid vaccine. Im sure it has been underreported. I’m very uncomfortable and terrified of Covid vaccine frankly.

    • Peace   February 28, 2022 at 7:30 pm

      Yes, I agree vaccines are a very personal choice, not just Covid. I’m so sorry you ended up being in the hospital. I wish you a speedy recovery. Maybe take Covid antibodies test first?

  7. Jim   February 28, 2022 at 2:45 pm

    Kudos! Those of your ilk are growing exponentially. Perhaps there’s a glimmer of light beginning to form. For me, no one dare attempt to put anything in or upon my body without my fully informed consent. Again, kudos!

  8. Shelly Hamid   February 28, 2022 at 2:52 pm

    Thank you for your brave and Informative commentary. I feel as you do and am currently re-evaluating my role as an RN. Some good had to come from all of this, and I pray that we will be shown in the near future. I admire you and wish you all the best as we witness this brave new world that has come upon us, one that we perhaps never thought we would see. Blessings to you.

  9. Kit   February 28, 2022 at 2:56 pm

    Wonderful article. Thanks to the writer for explaining her experience, which is a great example of how the covid-19 debacle has led previously non-questioning people to start questioning public health policies, including pharmaceuticals such as vaccines. Kudos to her for not losing her heart and her head despite all the pressure.

  10. Peace   February 28, 2022 at 2:57 pm

    I appreciate her the fact she will not to force a medical treatment on anyone. Health care providers are supposed to honor patients wishes in spite of disagreement. Vaccines are one of the medical interventions we must decide for ourselves, not the government or heath care providers. That has been the problem with public health system more recently since Covid vaccine mandate took effect last year. Public health, the cdc, and fda have been in bed with big pharma. Very loathing.

  11. Colorado   February 28, 2022 at 2:59 pm

    It’s difficult to be sympathetic to this sort of cognitive dissonance. Our children have been denied a wide range of societal participation since long before this pandemic started. On the mere basis that we have never accepted vaccinations. Entire segments of multiple industries have long since accepted coercive practices as normalized and acceptable. The medical community has long since sanctioned this discriminatory behavior and so has the government by way of vaccine company liability protection. As if the dramatic uptick in chronic diseases from highly vaccinated populace groups was not enough. What many medical practitioners fail to realize is they’ve always been inside this myopic bubble of isolated values and limited operational procedure choices. You can’t even get a medical or RN position or many others, if you don’t accepted forced vaccination to just get into school. The only people aware of this failure of the vaccination program and the failure of reasonable ethics come from the inside after having finally matured enough or grown enough of a conscious to see the harm their industry is causing to others. I suggest to learn what discrimination is and what it is not. Informed consent is a buzz word which means nothing. How can it be acceptable to do harm to the patient, merely because the patient was informed said medicine was going to harm them. There is no such thing as a safe vaccine. We said no to vaccines on principal because good ideas do not require force. Look at the NVIC website for the ongoing updated lists of all the coercion big pharma continues to apply through perverse government corporate sponsorships and relationships.

    Now a doctor in Africa has claimed that the covid vaccine blood clotting and other failures are transferrable to non vaccinated via sexual intercourse. Another article from just today details a new scientific study which shows that the rnma code transcribes into the nucleus and does alter DNA which is presumably a multi generational effect which could affect fertility in offspring (if you can even have them…) This specifically identified this in the liver and ovaries. Additionally shedding of these dangerous prions is real.

    We need immediate information on the possible situation of non vaccinated people being possibly subjected to rnma resequencing activity merely from exposure to shedded prions in the air. Sort of like the fears of gmo food stuffs and transmutagenic spontaneous cross over from one plant to another and even inter species and plant to animal transference of altered gene traits. If this rnma resequence from the covid non-vaccine can be shared via sexual intercourse, what about a kiss or a sharing of a drinking glass, blood exposure, etc. There is an increasingly long list of concerns for non vaccinated people due to the pervasive perverse nature of propaganda and censorship which seeks to implement a policy that vaccine manufacturers can not be questioned and are always right. Will our children need to qualify prospective partners based on their covid vaccine status in the future?

    We did not go through all of this to keep ourselves from becoming genetically modified organisms just to breed that in purposefully, much less roll up our sleeves and volunteer for it. And now in retrospect we more clearly understand why big pharma was partnered with the anti disclosure movement regarding gmo foods. One of the most ironic events of coronavirus was watching organic consumers volunteer for the covid shot. Clearly they did not have as good of a grasp on what genetic engineering was or it’s possible risks. Spontaneous transmutagenic genetically modified trait crossover is real in plants… We need information if this is happening from modified humans to non modified humans and we need this information now. There is adequate emotional and discovery and proof articles out there. It’s time to stop proving what is already proved and move on to more important long term goal research. We have no problem leaving behind those whom refuse to consider these issues logically. They are in prisons of their own making and we will not be sharing their space or grief. They did this to themselves.

    • Inactive RN   February 28, 2022 at 5:14 pm

      Actually, you CAN get into Medical school or nursing school, CNA training, et c as long as you know your rights and how to fight for your exemption.

      I went through nursing school without vaccines (2006-2008). My instructor explained that I would have to GIVE vaccines, which I didn’t have a problem with as long as I knew the recipient was informed. I actually found that my small hospital was not complying with the federal standard of informed consent and had it instituted. I never gave a vaccine without providing the information to the patient and giving them ample time to read it or go over it with myself before signing on the line. Then and only then would I give it.

      Two of my children also went through nursing school without vaccines! (2009-2011 and 2013-2015) None of my children are vaccinated, but six of them received nurse aide training and served in the field without vaccines. For the later nursing student, my husband worked for over two years gleaning information through the public information act, by sending questions back and forth and using certified mail to build a case, present it to the local community college, and eventually get them to provide a waiver for students who were not vaccinated. He had to prove they could find clinical sites which did not require vaccines. Of course, they did not publicize that they had such a vehicle, but two other students beside our daughter used it.

      Flu season wasn’t a problem when I started practicing. We could simply refuse if we wanted. But then they started to be more insistent, saying you had to wear a facemask if you weren’t vaccinated for the flu (a complete violation of HIPPA rights!) By 2013 I had to fly under the radar every flu season because I was unwilling to get the flu vaccine. I did this by working registry. I found that most places providing medical care don’t have the same stringent rules for agency as for their own staff. You DO have to ask the agency up front though. Some require vaccines. Period.

      Then, practice where giving vaccines will not be part of your job description. If you have a conscious at all, you cannot recommend vaccines.

      Yes, the non-vaccinated are being highly discriminated against. This has changed the course of life for many people. I retired at least five years ahead of schedule. Fortunately, my husband feels as strongly about this as I do. He looked at the finances and said, “You can quit. We have enough money.”

      It’s a terribly sad state of affairs when health care workers cannot work without being forced to take medical procedures.

      I really appreciate all of the frontline doctors who got the word out about treating covid without going to a hospital. This saved my 70-year-old sister-in-law’s life.

      • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 2:55 pm

        Thank you for that information. Sadly many of those pass through opportunities are limited and are somewhat of a state by state basis. The hospitals now are trying to discriminate against all forms of vaccine status, yes the mask half the year if you don’t get the flu vaccine. These days many workers just write each other up for having received vaccines even though they just throw them away. That’s what these institutions don’t understand, if they use coercive practices, normal patterns of behavior and honesty fly out the window. It comes from the top and rolls downward, as they say. If your employer has no respect for your independence, well, they should not be surprised if workers go tit for tat to keep their jobs when standing against overbearing company policies. All those stats about maximum compliance, they’re often contrived or manipulated data. Take all stats about vaccination rates for adults and chop a fifth off the figure, at least. Also I feel sort of bad for a harsh post but it’s like, just figuring this out now? People don’t care about discrimination until it happens to them. As Ghandi said, vaccination is a barbaric practice.

        Also big thank you to NVIC for the bumper sticker in the mail and the new Barbara video. Been asking for that for a long time, thanks. But only one sticker I’m not sure if I can put it on the truck or not, lol, it’s a collectable! Hopefully will have the ability to get more bumper stickers from NVIC during yearly donation. We will continue to give a hundred or so yearly to NVIC, this organization is important to support and their various resources on exemptions has really helped us navigate a position of being independent and not accepting coercive practices from schools to employers to government. Thanks.

  12. bj   February 28, 2022 at 3:03 pm

    Thank you for being brave enough to share an unpopular stance in the world. I applaud you for acting on your convictions and upholding your own values. I predict that great good will come to you and your family and that your contributions in the world will be even more positive in a work environment that suits you better. The world is a better place because of your courage.

  13. Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey   February 28, 2022 at 3:07 pm

    Laura, I applaud you for your courage to fight the good fight for your patients for as long as you did, and for writing this article. It is an important aspect of the pandemic I bet most haven’t witnessed. My heart goes out to you and your patients and families. It is gut-wrenching. I understand why you quit. Please try to release the guilt. You did your best, and I am sure you helped many.

  14. Dana L Haas   February 28, 2022 at 3:19 pm

    This is my story almost word for word. Public Health, Mothers and Babies, Lactation support. Nice to read something that reflects what I have experienced, but tragic that it has to be told. I took a painful hit to my pension by retiring early before I had to inject anyone against my conscience, because, as you said … all other programs were cut to deal with our myopic treatment of one illness to trump all else. Children and the elderly being sacrificed in our day. No words.

  15. Chris   February 28, 2022 at 3:19 pm

    This is heartbreaking in so many ways. Thank you for everything you did, Laura.

  16. Elaine   February 28, 2022 at 3:26 pm

    That was a fantastic article – we need to see and hear from more people that “are actually working for these agencies.” Boots on the ground stories.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 2:59 pm

      If that’s your requested content you should stay subscribed to this NVIC Vaccine Reaction newsletter, sign up as an NVIC member (free) on nvic dot org website, and also sign up for the CHD Childrens Health Defense newsletter, specifically “the Defender”. It’s an RFK Jr effort for safety in consumer products from medicine to water and beyond. CHD can be a little too heavy on the daily news emails but also we stay subscribed because their work is so important. The truth about faucci sold a million copies!


  17. Joyce   February 28, 2022 at 3:43 pm

    ” I recall telling people that they were 95 percent protected from ever getting COVID at all.” This reminds me of telling people that they should not fear addiction from taking opioids for post-op pain. Nurses continue to be used as underpaid tools for the pharmaceutical industry. “Deep moral distress” sums it up perfectly. I hope you find another means to continue to help people.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 3:01 pm

      CHD covered that one too. The stated effectivity stats were wildly manipulated, taken from minuscule test groupings, sometimes only a few people. Lies. Damned lies. And statistics.

  18. abby beale   February 28, 2022 at 3:59 pm

    You are not alone.

  19. Kathleen K Melonakos   February 28, 2022 at 4:18 pm

    How sad that this nurse had to leave her job in order to be true to her conscience. Of course long established medical ethics uphold informed consent and the right to say no. To find out what is really happening and who is responsible for the all inappropriate protocols and forcing of treatments, see The Grand Jury, The Court of Public Opinion, Reiner Feulmich


    I have watched days one, two and three so far, and it is definitely time well spent.

  20. Pat   February 28, 2022 at 5:45 pm

    Laura, thank you for speaking out. There are clinics and other entities being formed that will employ people like you, and they need staff. So please look for them. *I* need to know there is an ethical clinic near me. We must take over the health care sector; to those forming the clinics, please buy a hospital in my city.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 3:04 pm

      Sadly, the vaccine mandates helped large powerful hospitals and medical institutions to poach labor from other companies. Shedding off experienced high pay people whom had conviction and would not take the vaccine, while appealing to workers in smaller clinics whom would work for less with equivalent skill, and they still got a raise when bouncing towards the larger institutions. After every vaccine non compliant purge came a hiring blitz. The small companies are also coerced even if they did not implement such policies, as they have to also interact with the big hospitals and clinics and specialists. So they were often unable to hire those skilled people whom were let go. And AFLD covered the most shocking lawsuit against major hospitals in CA, whom coordinated with government to institute vaccine policies. Racketeering at it’s finest.

  21. Hope   February 28, 2022 at 7:50 pm

    How courageous and inspiring. An in-depth inside outlook on what I have felt as an “essential” worker. Now my employers are segregating those vaccinated from the unvaccinated by having only the unvaccinated wear masks while working.

  22. Alabama John   February 28, 2022 at 8:07 pm

    If you were a man I would tell you not to try forcing anything on us if you want to keep your front teeth. But, since you are a woman I wouldn’t know how to handle this other than say we won’t take it Mam. Down her in Alabama we still teach and obey the old lesson to say “yes mam, no mam, thank you Mam and please”. Wish more would do that as well.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 3:07 pm

      Listen, Birmingham, tone it down.

  23. Louis   February 28, 2022 at 9:12 pm

    Thank you for sharing your experience, Laura. I pray that God will help you find another venue by which you can share your skills and compassionate heart with others.

  24. Graham   March 1, 2022 at 1:46 am

    In ALL of the above, despite palpable personal anguish, there is not ONE SINGLE WORD about Prevention!(Real prevention, not useless (non-vaccines)!

    On 23 January 2020 Andrew Saul PhD, a senior member of the Orthomolecular News Service, published advise on supplementation to build up your immune system. It is really simple, and has kept my wife and I (Average Age 79) totally free of ANY negative symptoms. Not even a simple ‘Seasonal Flu’ in the past 2 years! But then we have used Vitamin C (MegaGram doses), Vitamin D ( Never less than 5,000 IU per day) – [Dr Fauci is reported to take more than 8,000 IU daily – that proves there IS something he can get right!!!], Magnesium, Zinc and Selenium.

    It realy is as simple as that! Look after your OWN immunity, and you do not need to use the crap promoted by Doctors who are more interested in protecting their ‘income’ at YOUR expense!

  25. Angelo M. Aguila   March 1, 2022 at 7:55 am

    I’ve known for a while that these atrocities have been happening around us. As a foreign graduate of nursing, I was once told that the reason why nurses are considered professionals in the US and is paid well for being one was because of critical thinking. That was back in 1998. However, when I got here and started practicing, I began to question where the critical thinking aspect was in even the smallest of clinical situations. And then I noticed a pattern, I began seeing that it was more about being a good soldier for following edicts with minimal supporting science behind them. I noticed that it became more about compliance than doing the right thing.

    I too have experienced the same thing as Laura in terms of losing my career that I’ve identified as for 22 years. I fear that there is no way to fix this system but there is an opportunity to create a parallel one for those who have questioned and those who are considered awakened by this fiasco.

  26. Peace   March 1, 2022 at 9:02 am

    You tell me about non vaccinated people are being discriminated. I feel that way, too. I was so upset when my client asked me if I was planning to get it. My reply was “ I can’t discuss it, sorry.” Im so tired of the discrimination based on vaccination status. It’s really sad.

    Nurses still should be treated with dignity and respect in spite of vaccination status.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 3:21 pm

      “Vaccine status”…. You’re participating in that system by merely repeating their language terms. Since when did ‘vaccine status’ become a thing? You were all normalized to the concept with decades of coercive practices applied against children. The big pharma industry promised a continued growth of the industry and as childhood vaccine injury became more and more apparent they needed to crack into the adult market. And crack into the larger market with the same coercive practices applied to children they indeed accomplished. I will remind all these newly self appointed advocates of medical independence that only 2 years ago many of you were also participating in parent shaming, discriminating against children and parents alike for what you’re experiencing today. Even to this day we continue to hear ridiculous slogans like I support vaccination, just not this particular vaccination. If the shoe fits wear it. If the medicine is good, take it yourself first. If you actually care you’ll strike up conversations with all the ancillary avenues of discrimination like dance club, jr sports, educational providers, and you’ll refuse to fill out vaccination compliance paper work on principal alone. If you want to send the message and support this cause, it’s going to take more than blogging online. What exactly is ‘vaccine status’? Sorry, the question is unanswerable and subjective. It is an illogical use of the English language. What is that, why does it matter, and what do you care? They’ll say for public safety and public health. More logical fallacies and improper language use. The notion of public health is about as sensible as a public arm or public leg or public meal or public money. Health like many other aspects of life, are personally managed concerns that are nobody elses business anyways. (screeching voices; ) ‘You’re killing people by now wearing masks and endangering public health by not keep up to date on your vaccines!’ (screeeech). People don’t think these things through because ‘boosters’, I’ve got news for you; You need boosters for the complete range of childhood vaccines you previously took and their effects have now wained, and you’ll also need to get current with the few dozen additional concoctions the CDC has pushed through to approved vaccination tables. Anyone every wonder why the childrens vaccine compliance list is much longer than an adults? People whom at any point have bought into this have not been applying a sensible logic filter. That’s how it goes these days, people hear a slogan and then repeat it with fervor. Raise your right hand at a fourty five degree angle, palm outward, and repeat after me; safe and effective. Repeat it until you truly believe it Winston.

  27. Nathalie   March 1, 2022 at 7:09 pm

    Time for these REAL professionals who truly care about people’s health to form their own independent group and run the Big Pharma shills out of business.I know many that would rather pay cash for real treatments that work rather than pay for insurance that restricts on to the poisonous ‘standard of care’.

    • Colorado   March 4, 2022 at 3:33 pm

      Well, you’re going about it all wrong Nathalie. The game in big pharma is to identify naturally occurring substances with health benefits, isolate the beneficial compounds, then create analogs of the compound which can be patented and sold. On the other hand they they demonize and try to make vitamin and holistic treatments illegal. There is a cure for cancer. There is a cure for dimensia. There are important relationships to organic eating, oral health, and intestinal health which all control your entire bodies ability to mount defenses to disease and illness. You just have not heard of these… The unlimited power of censorship, it’s been going on a long time. The vitamin lobby in DC is pretty darn weak but the sugar lobby carries a lot of clout. The solution is to get back to out of pocket cash based treatment. The sad truth is we have far too many ‘medical professionals’ out there. They’ve all driven cost of care sky high and none of them have been able to withstand the emerging corporatocracy which cuts through the industry with divisive insurance and liability practices. It’s illegal for a doctor to prescribe to you an organic diet. But it’s entirely legal for them to act like big pharma drug pimps, despite the ever growing probability that same thing they prescribed may be recalled as a dangerous medical product at a later date. The list of FDA product and medicine recalls keeps growing and growing and growing. Dare to look and you won’t like what you find. As they say; An apple a day keeps the doctor away. The medical industry has popularized medicine and DTC direct to consumer drug advertising on televisions has literally 6 out of 10 Americans on some sort of unnecessary specialty prescription drug. We’d all be better off with legal opioids because a nation of drug addicts whom is also turned psychopathic from designer chemicals, well, just look at the results of this program today. If you want to do something meaningful for medical reform, a good starting place is to argue for dtc drug advertising to be illegal on television just like nicotine. The drugs they’re pushing are far more dangerous than nicotine anyways.

  28. A joy whipp   March 2, 2022 at 2:25 pm

    In my State the Senior Center suddenly could only be available for the vaccinated. The happy and hopeful place where a smile could save a day and answers and even medical implements were available became verboten. The meals the helps the humans were changed in a day. You either had your “card” and were welcome or you were outside looking in and deemed worthy of shame.

  29. Fowell the $   March 2, 2022 at 8:22 pm

    You have witnessed 3 ways the bioengineered virus cause death and illness.
    1. The bioengineered virus itself.
    2. The restrictions limit access to our support system.
    3. The deadly dangerous vaccine.

  30. JaneDoe1776   March 24, 2022 at 8:30 pm

    Those weren’t “undocumented immigrants” in your caseload, they’re ILLEGALS and should not be here in the first place. Especially not living here at the taxpayer’s expense (like the family you mentioned that’s kids got free lunches from the school even during the plandemic when schools were unjustifiably shut down).


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